"Rather than love, than money, than fame,
give me truth."
- Henry David Thoreau, Walden
The
last time I remember Grandma giving me a book recommendation was in 1999. I was
a freshman in college and the book was Into the Wild by John Krakauer. I
don't remember if she gave it to me because she had read it and thought I would
like it, or because that summer she had noticed me reading Into Thin Air and
thought I'd like another book by the same author. Either way, I loved that
book. It ranks in the top five most influential of my life. It's the true story
of a young man named Chris McCandless, who grew up in suburban Virginia in the
70s and 80s. Upon finishing college he suddenly and unexpectedly severed all
ties with his family and embarked on an adventure across the United States.
Along the way he kept a journal in the margins of his favorite books, and
shared with friends his personal philosophy: that a life of simplicity and
adventure is the only kind worth living. After two years of wandering, he
hitchhiked to Alaska and walked into the Denali wilderness with plans to live
off the land. Chris perished about 100 days later. A hunter who discovered Chris's
body in the woods also found a small collection of books including Dr.
Zhivago, Call of the Wild, and - naturally - Walden, by Henry David
Thoreau.
Chris McCandless, 1992, shortly before his death.
It
is striking how much Thoreau and McCandless had in common. They both believed
that most people miss the beauty of life because they are addicted to the
security offered by material possessions. Both relished solitude and at times
actively despised the company of others. Both were addicted to the intoxicating
allure of the wilderness. But there are striking differences as well. Thoreau
was committed to living simply and as part of nature, but did so in a well
constructed cabin just a few miles from Concord. Even in the much less
developed world of the 1840s he could hear the whistle of the train and nearby
church bells while sitting inside his little cabin. Chris on the other hand was
only satisfied when the safety net was completely removed.
Not
to say that Thoreau had it easy. His tiny cabin couldn't have been much. After
all Henry built it himself over a period a few weeks. For furniture there was a
bed, a desk, and a chair. He had next to nothing, but that was the point.
Thoreau believed that most men wasted their lives toiling at work
unnecessarily. "I see young men, my townsmen, whose misfortune it is to
have inherited farms, houses, barns, cattle, and farming tools. How many a poor
immortal soul have I met will nigh crushed and smothered under its load"
Thoreau insisted that "he who does not eat need not work" and that
"by working about six weeks in a year, I could meet all the expenses of
living." At Walden this meant occasionally foraging for berries ("going
a-berrying" as he called it), fishing on the pond ("a-fishing"),
and farming on the on land around his cabin ("a-hoeing") which he
described as "making the earth say 'beans' instead of 'grass.'"
What
to do with all your spare time then? Henry passed his watching nature from his front
porch. He spent days watching, and hundreds of pages describing, squirrels
eating his leftover beans, birds pecking at what the squirrels didn't want, and
ducks ("loons") paddling around the pond. I had to skim a lot of the
endless nature descriptions, which reminded me of John Galt's interminable 80
page radio speech in Atlas Shrugged, only instead of a masterful
political treatise it was just a story about a small red ant engaged in an
hours long duel with a much larger black ant. At other times though I was
completely drawn into Henry's world and felt like I was sitting on the porch
with him in 1845 watching a storm roll in, or seeing a hawk soar and dive above
the trees, listening to an owl in twilight, or watching the winter ice creep
inch by inch over the pond.
But
let's be honest: the man is insufferable. Everyone but Henry is a greedy money
grubbing misguided fool. Everyone but Henry is miserable. Everyone but Henry is
living a life of "quiet desperation." The world is so full of
loathsome boring old creatures that "to be in company, even with the best,
is soon wearisome and dissipating. I love to be alone. I never found the
companion that was so companionable as solitude." Oh yeah, Henry? Maybe
it's us who don't want to hang out with you. Did you ever think
about that?
At
certain points I was so annoyed with Henry's sanctimoniousness (Grandma's word,
not mine), that I found myself wishing he hadn't written the book in the first
place. In those moments I felt the same way about Thoreau as I do about those
ubiquitous Instagram feeds owned by a hipsters with a Volkswagen, an SLR, a
Gingham photo-filter and way too much time on their hands. Much to Martha's
annoyance, I've said many times over the years that excessive photo snapping
and social-media sharing sucks the joy out of otherwise magical moments. You
can experience a perfect moment, or take a picture of it, but not both. (I've
lightened up a lot in this area but I still think it's mostly true.) In that
sense, wouldn't Thoreau's experience on the pond have been that much sweeter if
he'd kept it to himself? We wouldn't have been able to share it with him of
course, and one of the master works on Transcendentalism would have gone
unwritten, but at least we'd have been spared his inexhaustible stream of
self-gratifying humble brags.
But
I'm just as bad, am I not? Isn't it true that the character flaws we see most
clearly in others are the same ones we possess ourselves? Just like Henry, I
feel the same need to go on and on about the way I see the world. What is this
blog, after all, if not a sad attempt at broadcasting my thoughts as I
work through my own little social experiment? Thoreau had a nice little quip
when people accused him of being self-centered: "I should not talk so much
about myself if there were anybody else whom I knew as well." Maybe it
wouldn't be so bad if I shared just my views but left the ideas of others out
of it. But, like Thoreau, I can't stop myself from criticizing just about every
philosophy or lifestyle that is different than my own. This disease has a name,
"Dontopedalitis," the main symptom being the reflexive opening of
one's mouth followed by the insertion of one's foot. It is an ailment that has
afflicted me for years, and though not well known in Thoreau's time,
circumstantial evidence points to his having contracted it as well.
My
best moments reading Walden came when I managed to look past the style
of Thoreau's delivery, and instead focus on the core message. "Simplicity,
simplicity, simplicity! I say, let your affairs be as two or three, and not a
hundred or a thousand." The man once threw out a centerpiece for his table
because he couldn't be bothered to dust it off once in a while. He advises us
all to eat just once daily because everything that goes into a meal is so
burdensome. Why spend your life toiling away so that you can have pork and
butter at every meal, when instead you could eat bread for practically nothing
and spend your time enjoying nature? This concept came up in in another book I
read lately, Homodeus by Yuval Harari, who observed that today's
unskilled laborers could work just 10 hours per week if they would be satisfied
with the average consumption levels of 100 years ago. But they would not, would
they?
When
I asked Grandma why she liked Walden, she said it was the message of
simplicity that resonated with her. The example she gave was people always
insisting that she buy camping gear, but that this never made sense to her. Why
should she own and store a bunch of stuff that is only used once or twice per
year? I like camping, but that's not the point. The point is so many of us are
nearly buried alive under the weight of our lifestyle, and we don't even see it.
What if you could cut your expenses in half today? Would the freedom that comes
with security outweigh the stress that comes with less living space or a
crummier car? Thoreau believed that for many people the answer is yes.
But
Thoreau's philosophy was more than just minimalism and simplicity. He was
obsessed with truth. He never described what truth is, only that the absence of
it is the primary cause of unhappiness. "Shams and delusions are esteemed
for soundest truths... If men would steadily observe realities only, and not
allow themselves to be deluded, life... would be like a fairy tale." In
the realm of observable science, truth can be described in terms of facts and
falsehoods. But in the realm of philosophy and lifestyle, truth is subjective
and relative. That's why we can all criticize Thoreau's message of simplicity
with such vigor, because who can prove us wrong? I like his insistence that he's right even in the face of so much criticism. I have a soft spot in my
heart for anyone who can listen to the whole world calling them a fool and still have the courage to think otherwise. Thoreau said "The greater part of
what my neighbors call good I believe in my soul to be bad, and if I repent of
anything, it is very likely to be my good behavior. What demon possessed me
that I behaved so well?" Amen, brother.
I
underlined a quote towards the end of the book which Chris McCandless, much
more famously, also underlined in the copy of Walden found next to his
body: "Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth." If
there's one message in Walden that spoke to me it was this one. In the end,
I can look past all of Thoreau's heavy-handedness and self-righteousness,
because he is a truth seeker. In that sense I want to be just like him.
Thanks,
Grandma for a great recommendation.
Next up: Natalie's book, Crime and
Punishment.
Way to be self-aware. Really good review. It made me chuckle at certain points. Interesting match, Chris and Henry. I wonder what Thoreau would think of today's minimalism trendiness. He'd probably think it's a sham. But people are taking stock of how they are being buried under too much stuff and there's a slow societal shift. It'll be interesting to see if it goes anywhere on a grand scale.
ReplyDelete